I came across a quote, which summarized my beliefs about life,”We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”

I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. For me to write that all events are predetermined would be ignorant. I don’t believe this entirely. As humans, we have the ability to make our own choices, however I must admit I have questioned this at times. There have been moments in my life I have felt like a puppet on strings. Rather like dancers. (See what I did there). What I do believe, is that some of us will experience weird circumstances that you can only imagine is predetermined. No logical explanation or choice for that matter. Being a Gemini, I possess the classic trait of indecisiveness and can easily go back and forth debating this within myself, let alone with others.

There are two types of people. Those who don’t believe in destiny and those that do. If you don’t believe, then you don’t wait around for anything or anyone and go out and create the life you desire. Which I admire. If you are at the opposite end of the spectrum then you sit and wait for something to happen. Which I think is extremely unhealthy. At this point in my life, I am comfortably in the middle. I have faith that everything happens for a reason, whilst pursuing the life I desire. It’s often when you are focusing on yourself and creating your life that destiny intervenes.

Whilst I’m writing about this topic I must share a rather amusing story. The first time I had a tarot reading was when I was 15 years old at Brighton Pier. I thought it would be fun, yet I left nearly in tears! I left looking horrified whilst my friends mum pleaded with my friend not to go in after! Then last summer, in a bid for answers to my unanswered questions, I contacted a psychic. Being spiritual, I have always been curious. It turned out not to be my wisest move. Completely out of character, I agreed to be picked up at a station by a stranger. A man in a white van then pulled up. I know what you’re thinking..She actually got in? I know, I know. However, I arrived safely! The reading itself was vague, although I do still have the reading on C.D to refer back to.

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.

I think I’ll always be a hippy at heart. Now where did I leave my crystals…

I often wonder how I ended up at university. The route I took and the experiences I went through. One particular quote that resonates with me lately is by author Gareth Nix: “Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?”. It really got me thinking of the moments in my life that defined my path. Particularly on the five hour coach ride I often take back to London from university.

Whenever I need to get away, I visit Mount Edgecumbe. I take the Cremyll ferry across as it’s just over a pound for a single adult ticket. I always sit outside on the deck of the ferry, whatever the weather. Enjoying the sound of the choppy waters and the occasional splash of water, I feel instantly calm by the time I arrive at Mount Edgecumbe. I usually wander through endless woodland or head straight to the stony beach. It’s as if the ferry transports me away from my responsibilities for a few hours. I could sit on the beach for hours, thinking about life and breathing in the fresh air. Being surrounded by woodland and silence allows me to think and rationalize my thoughts.  It truly is a beautiful place to visit.

On reflection, I’m aware that all the challenges I have experienced, since I’ve been at university, will only shape me for the better. The difficulties you encounter in your life will no doubt help shape you as a person. It provides experience and gives you knowledge on how to deal with a particular situation, shall it ever arise again in the future.

Did I make the right choice in going to University? It doesn’t feel like it now, but ultimately I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.